“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow – not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below – indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

– Romans 8:38-39

Today has been a really weird day. I’ve been running around everywhere, trying to do everything, and attempting to not be overwhelmed with all the things on my to-do list. Do you ever have so much to do that you feel yourself mentally shut down to the point that you genuinely just don’t think you can do anything at all? That is the point I was at today. My brain was spinning a thousand different directions and I didn’t feel like I could focus on anything that needed to get done. Anxiety, stress, and fear were all setting in and I didn’t feel like there was much I could do about it. So I did what any responsible college “adulting” kid would do – I drove away from my problems.

Literally.

I hopped in my car and began to drive away from my apartment. As I drove off into the night, I began to pray prayers that lead to a conversation God and I have been having for a while now – conversations about “the guy.”

“Lord, I love my friends to death, but it would be really really really great to have a guy to talk to about this insane day. Someone to comfort me and just listen and actually genuinely care about what I am going through. I wonder where he is, Lord. I wonder what he’s up to today. I wish I could talk to him. “

As soon as the words left my mouth, an intense stillness washed over my spirit – peace so indescribable that I immediately shut my mouth. Then, before I could even really process what was going on, I felt these gentle words trickle over my heart:

“If you could talk to him today, what would you talk to him about?” 

What would I talk to him about? It seemed so strange that God would still my heart to ask me something like that, but nonetheless, I told him exactly what I would say.

“Lord, I would tell him that this day has been insane. I would tell him that I feel so overwhelmed with all my obligations and that I just don’t know how I can keep up. I would ask him to pray with me and for me. I would ask him if he wanted to go grab a Cook Out milkshake with me just to get away from it all for a second. I would ask him if we could just spend a little time together tonight to help silence some of these anxious thoughts and feelings.”

Before I could even think about what I had just said, God spoke again:

“My daughter, I wish you would come to me for these things instead of longing to share them with someone else.” 

Shock.

Stillness.

Peace.

Tears.

I broke down, apologized, then poured out my heart to the Lord about the day I was having and about the craziness that my life had become over the past few weeks. Don’t get me wrong, talking to friends or significant others about a rough day is great, but talking to GOD – now that will change your heart and perspective completely. As I prayed, I began to feel an overwhelming sense of comfort, peace, joy, and love. 

I had been looking for comfort in the wrong place, and God made sure I knew it. Yet, despite my anxious thoughts and anxious prayers, the Lord still chose to love me. He still chose to gently correct my misguided desires with a love and compassion that only He can faultlessly demonstrate.

“For the Lord corrects those He loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.”

– Proverbs 3:12

The idea of a perfect God loving me enough to correct me and shower me with His mercies baffles me. It’s an incredible love that knows no end – a love that endures forever.

As God and I pulled into the Cook Out line, one of my favorite David Crowder worship songs came on the radio –

“He is jealous for me,

loves like a hurricane,

I am a tree,

bending beneath,

the weight of His wind and mercy.

When all of a sudden, 

I am unaware of these afflictions

eclipsed by glory,

and I realize just how beautiful you are 

and how great your affections

are for me.”

Oh, how He loves. I sat still in the Cook Out drive thru line, overwhelmed by the Lord’s presence in my car, and so thankful for His perfect love.  His perfect, immovable love that casts out all anxiety, fear, and stress that this world tries to throw our way. He is so awesome, He is so worthy of every praise, and He is so in control.

Tonight He reminded me again that HE is my true comforter and companion. He reminded me that HE is the only one that can cast out my every fear and anxiety. He reminded me that HE listens and that HE hears my lonely cries. HE created me and knows my heart. He wanted me to tell you today those very same things.

He is your true comforter and companion. He is the only one that can ultimately cast out every fear and anxiety that you will ever face. He listens to your voice and He hears your cries. He created you and knows the depths of your heart. He loves you with an endless, powerful love. He longs for you to love Him back, to lean on Him for your comfort, to fall at His feet, and praise His name forever and ever.

“Behold, God is my helper; the Lord is the sustainer of my soul.” 

– Psalm 54:4

Man is not my helper, man does not sustain my soul. Grades are not my helper, grades do not sustain my soul. Obligations are not my helper, obligations do not sustain my soul. Success is not my helper, success does not sustain my soul. Money is not my helper, money does not sustain my soul.

GOD is my helper; THE LORD is the sustainer of my soul. 

Today, He reminded me of that truth.

May we be more aware of the incredible love and comfort He has already showered us with today.

In Him,

Caitlyn

“For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With His love, He will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” 

– Zephaniah 3:17 

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